“Lord, Please Keep Making Me.”

“Keep Making Me” by Sidewalk Prophets 

Make me broken
So I can be healed
‘Cause I’m so calloused
And now I can’t feel
I want to run to You
With heart wide open
Make me broken

Make me empty
So I can be filled
‘Cause I’m still holding
Onto my will
And I’m completed
When You are with me
Make me empty

‘Til You are my one desire
‘Til You are my one true love
‘Til You are my breath, my everything
Lord, please keep making me

Make me lonely
So I can be Yours
‘Til I want no one
More than You, Lord
‘Cause in the darkness
I know You will hold me
Make me lonely

This song is my prayer. The lyrics are simple, but sometimes the simple things affect and direct our minds and hearts the most to what really matters. 

The month of February was quite a struggle. Nursing school has challenged me to re-question where I am supposed to be, if this career is right for me, if I should possibly transfer to Columbus, and some other things. Many students, including myself have had very bad experiences with one class in particular and the professor. It is so bad that right now I am not even passing the class, as well as many others, and it is a very scary thing. I am so used to A’s and B’s, so I spoke with this professor about my concerns. She precedes to tell me that my studying skills seem fine, but she thought i was just a bad test taker. This statement has affected  my education more than I thought it would, for fear that I would become a bad nurse. In nursing school grades aren’t everything though, and that’s what I need to keep in mind. Learning the material is the most important. Struggles make it easy to want to give up. However, I know the Lord has to be pleased first and foremost. 

Last night as I was laying in my bed I began praying with these concerns heavy on my heart, however, I realized that I needed to take a moment to just thank Him first of all He has done for me. He has blessed me so much and I am so undeserving of all of them. 

1. First and foremost he gave me the greatest gift of all, salvation. 

2. He has given me a great church that is so supportive and caring.

3. He has given me a great family who supports me through times of struggle. A family who still loves me despite all of my failures and imperfections. ❤

4. A great work family at Hobby Lobby. I couldn’t ask for a better group of inspiring, caring, and thoughtful people. You have all made a good impact in my life in some way. Working for a Christian company with Christian people has been an incredible blessing. ❤

5. A great group of nursing students who are supportive of each other and care for each other in hopes to be successful in our program. I couldn’t get through the program without you all. ❤

6. A great roommate, cousin and best friend who is there whenever I need her. She is such a blessing.

These don’t even scratch the surface of all the things I am thankful for. Despite all of the bad things that have been going on lately, I have been so blessed to have so many people to support me. Most of all, I have God, the greatest friend, my Heavenly Father, who has my best intentions in mind. I could not make it though this life without his constant grace, mercy, and perfect love. The song mentioned above made me realize that in this life I don’t only need to strive to be a good daughter, friend, nurse, or coworker, but I also need to strive to be more like Him. He is the ultimate role model, the One who took on human flesh and lived a perfect life, the One who died so that I might live, the One who imputed His perfect love in my heart. Who wouldn’t want to strive to be more like Him?!

Finally, I want to thank all my readers for taking the time to read my blogs. It means more than you know. ❤

Have a great day, everyone!


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